Dear friends, I miss you.
I completely forgot about this blog, it made me laugh because we are such dorks. School and work has been keeping me really busy. I feel like I am just surviving on the weekdays, sort of feels like treading water and then when I sleep I can come to shore for a bit then when I wake up I just have to make sure I don't drown. Haha overexaggeration but I'm sure you can get what I mean.
Oh I bought a ticket to Seattle for Christmas break. I want to see my sibs Daniel and Marina. I feel bad that they can't go home for Christmas plus I really miss the west coast in general. I miss the people and I miss how everything has more nature around it. Here it's just city city city.
New York and Jersey are kind of growing on me though. There is something about people here where everyone can live together even though they are all so different that makes it so great. Haha sometimes when I am walking to work and I see a guy screaming at a cop for giving him a ticket and at the same time a man winks at another guy who's old for having the same hat as him and the lady giving out newspapers is calling everyone babydoll and yelling for them to have a great day, I can't help but love the way it is so chaotic and loud and busy.
Anyways I don't really know what to write now without rambling. Church here kind of depresses me. I tried going to New York, Clifton, NJ and even KEA somewhere else in NJ but it all suckksss. New York is more like Christian, Clifton the pastor is Indian and I can't understand what he is saying and KEA is really nice but I can't speak Korean and the whole service is Korean. So I haven't gone to church in forever. My mother in law keeps telling me we need to go to church but I would much rather sleep in and do hw. I definitely feel like my spiritual life is lacking I feel a lot less inspired than I usually am. I miss having a sense of community with people too.
I think Glenn feels the same way because the other day we just both without telling each other felt like we should just move to a completely different place. Maybe it's just because we are stuck in the grind of school and work hahah but I think it's also hard not to feel like this will be a permanent place to live unless we do something now.
Anyways I want to leave you with something that has inspired me, we were reading this in my Lit class.
"Genius can only breathe freely in an atmosphere of freedom. Persons of genius are, by definition, more individual than any other people -- less capable, consequently, of fitting themselves, without hurtful compression, into any of the small number of molds which society provides in order to save it's members the trouble of forming their own character."
- John Stuart Mill (from On Liberty)
I liked it because when he is talking about genius it is more of term for imaginative, creative individual, like the individual spirit. Just lately I can't help feeling that I should be doing something different I should be thinking about setting myself up for the right job for when I graduate. I feel like all my focus is getting my degree done instead of improving my skill or what I love to do.
Then the other day I was talking to Shin Young at work about it and she said that the people who are most successful in art are people who had a hobby and made it into something because they just loved it and kept improving it. And she said I am focusing on the stress of finding the job it's going to stifle my creativity. That I should find something I want to continue with and hone it so it is my skill.
Anywaysssss haha sorry for going on forever about this. But I hope society and the stress of life does not stifle your character or your individual spirit.
I love you!
Jude
