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I'm not really sure what to write hahah I feel like I am writing in a journal.

Today was pretty good. I didn't go crazy on studying for the accounting quiz I had today but I still think I did good. 

I was soooo soo tired when I got home after school I fell asleep for two hours.

Yesterday I went to NGA house and gave a testimony/ talk to the second years because they have a staff ws. Needless to say it was awkward. And my talk was not planned and I just talked about how hard second year can be if you have no purpose. I'm not really sure they got anything out of it. I also had a one on one with UJ, about the business.

It was surprisingly exactly what I needed to hear. I haven't had a good one on one with UJ since my first year of NGA. Basically he told me that whatever it is I end up doing I need to do it with motivation. I have to choose my reasons for doing it and then follow that. So now I guess it's a matter of what is most important to me in my reasons why and can I follow through with that reason no matter what. 

I still want to write out all the things about my business that I could possibly follow through with. Reasons why I wouldn't give up. But I also need to make reasons for why I want to pursue art. I haven't had time because I've just been doing homework and surviving the school grind. 

I'm excited for the week to end because friday is Pricilla's birthday and we are going on a boat, to eat and drink and stuff. I haven't done something fun like that since Halloween. It seems like most of the people here that don't party, their idea of fun is getting tea and watching movies at home. Which I don't mind but sometimes I feel like it lacks adventure. I'm sure there is a compromise between the two but I am starving for something exciting after all these tests and stuff. 

Aichan's been struggling lately, I feel bad for her, it's mostly stuff to do with her parents and how nga is making it hard for their family. It's weird because I feel like even though it's really terrible it's definitely making us be closer. Andddd we signed up for hot yoga classes through groupon so I'm pretty excited for that, but we need to go twice a week in order for it to be worth having. 

I found a quote today randomly that relates to exactly what I'm feeling. It's funny because Mergen posted the exact opposite like his perspective on things. The fact that he posted it makes me hate him more hahahah 

this is what he said:

"My core belief is that the pursuit of Mastery requires we be willing to leave our comfort zones, to make mistakes (once) and learn. All smart people do dumb things and one of the dumbest is to believe that anything worth doing is worth doing well. In addition to being totally debilitating, this statement is totally untrue. Here is a more accurate statement: Anything worth doing is worth doing poorly (at the beginning).

Bumper sticker: When you know better, you do better." 

Keith J. Cunningham

Then what I found was this:

Respect yourself enough to walk away from anyone or anything that no longer serves you, grows you or makes you happy.

bleh I'm not sure if mine seems like it is making excuses but mergen's is annoying because it has to relate to context. the context is basically are you willing to risk $200,000 of someone else's money to prove anything doing is worth doing poorly at the beginning? God I get soo annoyed with him. 

anyways thank god we are not married.

love jude.