blessing workshop

so I unexpectedly went to a blessing ws today.
It wasn't some grandiose high level one, ran by rev shanker or something hahaa just a small one run by Eunhwa and her husband with guest speakers like David Wolfenburger at the ballard church.

I was expecting it to suck, or not be that great. I didn't think I was gonna end up going but I went because I didn't want Molly to be alone and I thought it would be a good refresher. I'm really glad I went though. I think I've been forgetting why I do things if that makes sense. It's not like I have been going off dating people or something but you just do things because you're supposed to and because you know you want it in the long run. So it was a good reminder why I wanna get blessed and why I wanna be with someone in this church.

the biggest thing I learned was that love is practice. Just hearing all the couples talk about it, it's always a daily practice that kind of gets better with everyday but it's never just simple and easy.

I thought I was getting ready to be able to find someone, but I think I really wanna be happy before I find anyone. And I wanna be someone that is finally offering something to someone else not just desperate to be with someone. I don't feel like I'll have that until I completely love myself. bleehh anyways I'll stop going on with this.

I'm so excited my sister is coming tomorrow afdkalhdjakfhdsla

much love and happy holidays
jude