first time I cried out of self pity and depression hhahaha thinking about it, it's kind of funny and sad
second time was after I came home from the studio at school and watched this old second year graduation video that kana made for the cali center, made me cry soooo much hahaha
then third time I was just chatting tamaki and cried.
wtff
I think either the fume of paint or the end of the quarter is making me emotional. I literally spent the whole weekend painting because everything is due this week.
do you ever feel like life is like one neverending black door after another? like that story about the man who could choose between the firing squad or the black door. because it was easier to surrender than to go into the unknown... I dunno I just keep thinking about the future and I hate how uncertain everything is.
I'm working hard taking classes in hopes of getting a major, in hopes of getting a job, in hopes of loving what I do. It's just so unpredictable and I feel like if I'm not happy now I'm never gonna be happy.
sorry this ranting isn't really making sense to me either.
I'm just in a weird mood after this weekend. But I'm gonna power through this week and kick this quarter's ass! hahahah
here's one of my painting's I'm working on. it's not done yet but I like where it's at so far. Her name is Beatrix, it's a copy of Dante Rossetti's painting of her.
I'm really excited for the holidays, everyone is making all these fun holiday plans and I'm excited ^_^
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